sartre

And I—soft, weak, obscene, digesting, juggling with dismal thoughts—I, too, was In the way. Fortunately, I didn't feel it, although I realized it, but I was uncomfortable becuase I was afraid of feeling it (even now i am afraid—afraid that it might catch me behind my head and lift me up lik a wave). I dreamed vaguely of killing myself to wipe out at least one of these superfluous lives. But even my death would have been In the way. In the way, my corpse, my blood on these stones, between these plants, at the back of this smiling garden. And the decomposed flesh would have been In the way in the earth which would receive my bones, at last, cleaned, stripped, peeled, proper and clean as teeth, it would have been In the way: I was In the way for eternity.

Sartre, Jean-Paul. Nausea. 1938. Trans. Lloyd Alexander. New York: New Directions, 1968.